Nine of Pentacles can come up to indicate someone who works for themselves, but ofttimes when I pull this card it is a directive to start focusing on and nurturing your own independent life.
We often get so caught up in the lives of others and how they impact our lives that we sometimes forget who we are. Or forget to tend to the ground beneath our own two feet, and I mean that at a deep soul level. Get back to your authentic self, cultivate all that is unique in you.
One of my favorite books is Women Who Run With the Wolves by Clara Pinkola Estes. It bills itself as a breakdown of myths and stories of the wild woman archetype. But what it really is a map on how to get back to yourself, and what you should be doing to live as your most wild self. And she doesn't mean wild in the sense of crazy and care free, but wild, as in untainted by conditions around you.
Doing this takes time. It takes some architecting. It takes an openness to allow yourself to discover what works and what doesn't. It takes surrounding yourself with nurturing people, who believe you are a growing, evolving creature and will treat you as such.
The more you take the time to create and cultivate what is deeply in you, the more you are able to thrive authentically and more confidently around anyone, because you are living your own truth. The more you live your own truth, the more you attract like-minded people to you.
Also living your truth means finding it. Sometimes your intuition guides you to specific things that don't make sense. Follow it whatever it is: documentary films about a specific topic that you are finding more interesting; a particular celebrity that will help illuminate some of your goals; spiritual work that will help you keep more in tune with yourself and your surroundings or something in the arts.
The more you offer yourself up to the open valley of what's next, the more the universe will start throwing things in your direction as well.
Again, the more grounded you are in your authentic self, the more you will be able to have a fulfilling life, and deepen things with others around you.
While seeking out your authentic self though, do not be afraid to let go of things that no longer serve who you are. That is sometimes part of what you need to learn, and will help you continue to step into full alignment with yourself.
